My emotions

I hate this post actually,
I have promised myself that I'm not gonna share my own daily life problems.
But seems, if i have to keep these tears, im gonna crazy.
Let's just start, with my emotion.

I love my d*d so badly, but seems he never gives me any love.
I dont really know, why. I have one bro and one lil sist.
My d*d seems really addicted with my lil sist. Well, i'm not jealous, it's ok for me being like the second or the third if it is for the others.
But this time, i really couldnt stand for it.
Well, i did broke some important things,and he was really angry with me. But his words, those are really frustrating me.
He compared me to his men! His COMPANY MEN! How could?
He said that sometimes I wont do what he asked me to do, or saying something bad. But his men, oh my god. He said, his men are really good, they are the opposite of me.
What the hell?
I feel like, im totally an insane, who was trying so bad to get someone love. The one who should protected me.
Okay, I'm really an egoist and careless girl.
But at least, will he just give me a "how are you today" every single day?
When he arrived one thing he always do is asking my lil sist what has she been through today.
And if he called me, I know... It was my mom's intention.
I hate to have a driver. i prefer, and I really want my father drives me to school. And I would say good bye and hold my d*d's hand.
And I do really wish that he would say something good to me when he feel so annoyed to see me text my friend or bbm instead of saying that i wont get a job if i keep myself text-ing
GOD........... Bring me back my past
When he loved me, he cared me, he told me a bedtime story, he made me a milk with honey even i didnt really like it, he accompanied me to buy a new school's shoes, he drove me to school. I love him god, but please.............. Please................. Just my past, I want it back.

Insane with Heroes

I'm totally insane with Superhero movies.
Last night I watched 'I'm number Four" this time it's *i think* iit is not a piracy one.
I copied this from one of my friend lappy.
Goddamn, though it was an action-boring movie.
The hell is, yea one of my fav genre, heroes
I was like totally losing my mind, i got a dream about the next story. I'm curious y'know,
I cant sleep if i dont watch it by tonight, so i downloaded the pdf one. In ENGLISH zzz
Next one is, i found an update *looks like from marvel* about the avengers. Great ya?
Iron Man will be there :0 HOAA
Hero of heroes.
So what's next? The amazing Spiderman? (i think it will be so much different from the 1st or 2nd one, another ine story mayb?)

Btw, what a lucky day! Got 23rd turn on German presentation, and 6th on Indonesian presentation. Just wish my day gonna be like this day.

What a bin....

REPORT!

Greeting all humans!
It's been a long time yea? Sorry for the hibernate-term.
Well, the week before was so tiring i even couldnt take a breath for just a sec
day by day i have to do an exam. School loves exam and they got married accidentally(?)
Back to the exams-thingy. I got some bad scores, parents tried to kill me, teachers tried to hung me, friends tried to make me do suicide, etc. Something lyk that happened the week before.

Okay, i could manage my potential in Biology and Chemist. But not in Physics or Math. I'm bad in calculating. I got 50 in German. And 58 in my own national language. GYABO!
About anime, well i got some good animes from this season. Like Nurarihyon no mago sennen makyou (2nd season), Persona 4 anime, and GUILTY CROWN!

Being a fangirl, makes me feel like a normal human. Not a normal student.
And now im stuck with my homeworks -_- good bye baby good bye~

My Beloved Mom

"Mom? Who is she? Is she yours? Or Mine?
Your mom is yours and my mom is mine alone "

Well, hello bloggies.
Yak, kali ini ga ada English2an lagi. *ketawan google chromenya ngadet*
Ehm. Tepat pada post kali ini gue akan secara langsung dan LIVE menceritakan seperti apa rupa dari mamake yang sangat gue sayangin <3
First of all.
Mama gue ga seperti mama lainnya *kata gue*. Yah, dia cewek cuma dia bisa menjadi seorang papa di keluarga gue. Maklum papa jarang pulang dari kerja merantau di proyek nun jauh di surabaya. Mama gue secara menyeluruh punya sifat:
-Kayak anak kecil
-Selalu bikin ketawa kalo gue lagi curhat *menghancurkan suasana sedih :')*
- Hobby jait dan buat kreasi *ini bukan sifat*
- Jago akting *pernah nyaris meringkes ketakutan karena dia teriak2*

"She acts like a friend not as a 'Parent' "

Dia super mama banget. Entah kenapa kalo ngomong sama dia selalu bisa aja blak-blakan. Masalah anak muda sampe perkara kecil aku sama temen aku ceritain. *back to gue* Gue ga tau tapi di dunia ini ga ada yang bisa gue percaya dari pada dia.
Kadang sampe malah perkara kecil kehilangan barang kecil gara-gara temen gue ceritain. Tapi dia ga kayak temen2 lainnya yang mungkin bakal bilang "OH GITU DOANG" Dia malah ketawa dan bukan manasin kompor gue, tapi malah bikin gas baru yang ga akan menghasilkan api. Well, sering kali gue nanya "Ibu bakal marah ga kalo..." Pasti dia jawab "Ibu belom mikirin bakal marah apa enggak..." Hemmmzzz, ya otomatis gue ga takut. Jarang sih dia marah, tapi kalo marah hemm jangan harap menatap matanya, dagu nya aja ga kuat.

"She's a strong woman"

Nyokap gue ini bener2 super woman, selalu mutusin apapun sendiri tanpa keputusan ayah. Bukan karena menghindar dari bokap. Well, kayaknya sifat mereka agak ketuker. Hahaha, tapi dimana2 ayahlah yang paling kuat! *takut dibaca bokap* :p

"She loves to make fun at us"

Nyokap gue ini punya kebiasaan sering nge-godain kita. Apalagi kalo lagi curhat dan udah nyampe bagian Klimaks yang lagi hot-hotnya adu bacot di mulai. Eh, tiba-tiba dia ngelawak... Hmm mending lawakannya lucu... Lucu sih karena jayusnya hahahahahaha....
Apalagi kalo di mobil, kita tuh sebagai anaknya ga mungkin bisa curhat secara serius karena ulah lawaknya. Ya that's a very good thing. Kenapa? Karena setelah itu kita udah ga kepikiran lagi masalah2 yang mau kita bakar. Wqwq..
Pernah juga waktu itu dia ke sebuah acara mewah di mana anak2nya ga di ajak. bayangkan makanan kelas atas yang terjejer di acara tersebut. Menggiurkaaaannnnnn........
dan dia dengan santainya mengirim via bbm foto2 piring bekas makanannya hmmzz gimana ga iri setengah mati -_-

"She is addicted to games"

Nyokap gue paling sering dan hobby banget main word mole(salah satu game di Blackberry). Dia selalu ngasih tau kita setiap kali ngalahin rekor terakhirnya. Sampe-sampe sering nyokap minta di downloadtin game2 lagi.

But I Love you Mom, XOXOXOXO

Hell ya, MONsterDAY.
Oya otanjoubi buat gue, di sini belum sempet ngucapin. -__- #SOWHAT
Lagi badmood kawandh, males banget pake bahasa inggris. Hell ya...
Oya, bentar lagi penjurusan dimulai.. gue cuma pengen satu jurusan... IPA IPA GOD PLEASE!
Tapi kenapa oh kenapa nilai gue jelek semua, ipa maupun ips. Yah kalo ipa-gue dapet 6 ips gue 5 sih. Terus?
AAAH ga jelas udah ah pusing -__-"
Gimana caranya dapet-tin rata-rata 8 kalo udah kayak gini? Udah ah! Mom dad sorry ya kalo gabisa masuk IPA
Aku masuk sastra jepang aja deh.
Taulah...... #headbang
-Nonsense pictah

End Lines

XoXoXo

A tour which they called a - study- tour

Back from the darkness!
Yea, it has been a very long time. I am pretty busy lately. With some school's stuffs of course. But i'm trying to let myself to start blogging again today. What should we talk about guys?
>As you see at the tittle, i will tell you a bed time story about my short journey (actually this is a study-tour not a journey :p)

Last Wednesday, i and my friends were taking a study tour to the Old City - Jakarta and Ancol - Jakarta. I've never been to the Old City before. So i was pretty curious about that place. We started our journey at 7 am. We took a private bus. I was in the same bus with my classmates, so it was pretty awesome. We arrived at 8 am, and the teachers gave us a free time until 9 am. Fantastic! I brought my SLR, so i planned to take some photos. Awesome! The Scene is so damn unique. Mostly, I asked my friends to be the model, and some were only the scenes. There was an Old Bicycle there, I have to rent it so i could ride it. It was so hard to ride at the first time. I almost fell down. But, because i am a rider *_* i could ride it well.

Teng tong, nine o'clock.

My teacher called for us to surrender. They took us to Fatahillah Museum, which is located on the old city. The study began! It was so boring that I left my SLR in Mayang's bag, and i didnt know where she was about. I saw some old stuffs from the previous era.

Teng Tong, the teacher called us again. And took us to the Museum of Bank Mandiri. A HUGE museum. Oh yeah, lemme tell you I have a full page work-shit that i've to answer when we were looking around in the museum. So I asked some question to the guide. I couldnt hear very well what he has said. Argh..
>Next, our final place.
Gelanggang samudra- ancol. A place that filled with some Fish-stuffs. And my favorite one, The dolphin show! The guide took us to some wonderful place. I saw a bulu babi, Piranha ->(it didnt move at all in the aquarium, just like a stone -_-) and the others.
After the guide took us around. We have a Free time, so I decided to take a look at the stuntman. The stuntman was about to start. So I didnt get a good place to sit. I sat on the 1st line. When i was looking around, i saw a notice that read "Sitting on the 1st line- 3rd line it means you are ready to get wet.
DAMN IT! I didnt bring a jeans! I couldnt get out, so i only could pray. BAM!SHOT! The water were coming. And taraa i got wet. AH!
Because we dont have enough time, so we didnt go to the 4-D movie. But, I and Laras were sneaking around, and decided to watch it. HAHHAA >.<>

This month!

Hi theeeree,
I miss you all Muach~ Guess what? It's Ramadhan Month, or I can say, It's moeslem's month yea... Happy fasting for all muslim. And for my self... This month I am kinda busy, well ya.. as you know, this is my 1st month in my new school. Lot things have changed suddenly. New friends, new subjects *Deutsch/German*, new situation...-------- ARGHH I miss my old school. Well yea, last friday.. I met them *My old friends* at Junction (one of mall in my place) Oho, really i miss them, we had dinner together and had fun together. It's only about 4 hours, but i loved that moments.. --------------- Btw,...We were separated :'<>------- We had a dinner in red bean, You know... It's a high class restaurant for a student. I cost 45.000 rupiahs or i can say it's 45 dollars only for a plate of Hongkong Fried Rice and Lemon Squash DAMNN ITT! Hahaha, yea thought it was my 2nd time to eat at there.. Still it's kinda expensive Thanks to god, my parents didnt get mad on me, they just said, "well, this time ok" Lol, here I took some photos from my phone :D

Me And Anin



Restu, me and Dian

Me, Diba, and LOL! It's dian~

Best wishes,